My husband does not understand the jumping the gun mentality of the home pregnancy test. Although I am not sure if I should partake in the self mind torturing ritual - especially since it has never really panned out before.
So for some reason my clinic does not test a beta until 11 days post 5 day transfer. Thats a long time. Far longer than it would take to get a beta of 20 which is the cutoff for most pee sticks.
What to do . . . what to do.
So my 11dp5dt is this sunday and I have an appointment at 8am. This happens to be the day that I am throwing a baby shower. I imagine this is how it will go down.
At 2 pm I will be calling baby bingo at which time my phone will ring - do I answer or let the clinic leave a message? I can let it go to message and just check it after the shower, but how much self control do I really have? When it comes to waiting for answers - well lets just say I know myself enough to not be able to ignore it. I am obsessive when it comes to finding things out. I am the type of doctor that calls the lab 15 times if a lab was sent stat and they haven't resulted it yet within the usual time parameter.
So what I will do is probably sneak away to the bathroom to check my message - but then what? I still have to play happy hostess and center the world around the mom-to-be. It would be an absolute disaster if I started crying and I would never be forgiven if I stole any attention for myself.
So then I start thinking about cheating the system and just checking a little early. I certainly can and I think everyone else does. But should I? And if so . . . when?
Or should I just let it go - come what may? The answer doesn't change because I know any earlier. Its either there or its not. It doesn't make me any less upset once it happens - but it might make it easier to get through the day.
To test or not to test - I still don't have an answer.