SO I am planning another baby shower.
If you haven't read my previous postings I will just say in short that about 6 months ago I threw a double baby shower. This was a wonderful event for my two friends and their 2 fetuses, but this was a lesson in self torture. While most of us in medicine are used to delayed gratification - most of us in OB are a little masochistic. Well . . . this was an exercise in that.
I swore I wouldn't go to another baby shower until after I had a baby - or was at least pregnant. And here I am throwing one which is so much more involved. But, alas there is one friend who I am obligated to throw a party for - and she's preggo and in town for 1 weekend in July.
Dont get me wrong - I am super happy she is pregnant, and thrilled to be throwing her a shower, but from a completely selfish perspective - I just wish the timing was a little better for me. Its hard every time someone gets pregnant and I don't no matter how happy I am for them because no matter who it is now - I have always been trying longer and had to suffer through more disappointment than they will ever understand.
But its hard to come home to the decorations I bought yesterday because its a daily reminder. And when I talk to the other people who are excited for the pregnancy and her - well . . . I just really wish there was something else to talk about.
So I will be a good sport because that is what is expected of me, but I will be tortured the entire time. This stinks.