Always the bridesmaid

SO I am planning another baby shower.

If you haven't read my previous postings I will just say in short that about 6 months ago I threw a double baby shower.  This was a wonderful event for my two friends and their 2 fetuses, but this was a lesson in self torture.  While most of us in medicine are used to delayed gratification - most of us in OB are a little masochistic.  Well . . . this was an exercise in that.

I swore I wouldn't go to another baby shower until after I had a baby - or was at least pregnant.  And here I am throwing one which is so much more involved.  But, alas there is one friend who I am obligated to throw a party for - and she's preggo and in town for 1 weekend in July.

Dont get me wrong - I am super happy she is pregnant, and thrilled to be throwing her a shower, but from a completely selfish perspective - I just wish the timing was a little better for me.  Its hard every time someone gets pregnant and I don't no matter how happy I am for them because no matter who it is now - I have always been trying longer and had to suffer through more disappointment than they will ever understand.

But its hard to come home to the decorations I bought yesterday because its a daily reminder.  And when I talk to the other people who are excited for the pregnancy and her - well . . .  I just really wish there was something else to talk about.

So I will be a good sport because that is what is expected of me, but I will be tortured the entire time.  This stinks.