workaholic

I think I have met some DSM criteria for work-a-holic.  I've had 2 days off in the past month, today I started early and just finished.  I got to the point tonight where I needed to make phone calls and it was socially just too late to keep calling patients with results.

My candle is burnt.  Both ends fried.  But tomorrow starts a weird little time for me.  I have no scheduled extra call or shifts for the next month and my surgery schedule is halved.  The calendar is somewhat cleared for some possible upcoming sick days - paved for the IVF.  I've been picking up so many extra shifts for so long to try to save for it all that I have forgotten what life was like-- Before I felt like I needed to earn all I could.

I may not know what to do with myself.  I'm not sure if I will know how to relax.  I never thought I would have this problem - but then again I've found myself in a lot of "never thought that I ..." situations with this whole baby-making process.