Women are planners by nature
Doctors and Type A by training
so lets just say I am very anal retentive when it comes to putting together my calendar. In a 2 doctor marriage one must plan about 6 months in advance for any vacations, holidays and calls. For me - I have no idea what state I will be in in 6 months. Will I be exhausted and pregnant? On my 4th frozen embryo transfer and out of funds? Have given up? On a break?
I have no idea. My plans are all on hold. Don't know when or where my next vacation is or where I will be celebrating the holidays but I am holding out hope that I will be healthy with some type of bun in the oven. This is not bad . . . just different than the control I am used to having.
But with a baby I will have to surrender all control anyway - so maybe it is a good lesson for me.