I feel proud of myself - I have successfully distracted myself into not thinking too much about this cycle. This of course will change as the days progress, but between taking call tomorrow night, giving a lecture thursday - probably sleeping straight to friday and then leaving town for the easter weekend - I may do okay.
Even in the face of 2 new pregnancies announced by friends in the past week - I am holding my own. Floating, looking up at the sky instead of working to tread water. I hope it lasts.