Its still there and I can see it! - a little small for what it should be but within the range of acceptable. I walked into that appointment completely thinking it was all over - like I couldn't possibly have made it this far. Like I wasn't deserving of really being pregnant.
The head trip that I put myself through. Not sure why I torture myself. Maybe its self defense or maybe I think to much. Probably a lot of all of it.
But its there - the rest doesn't matter. Yes I have ovaries up to my belly button with so many cysts she couldn't even count them - but I guess that the only real sign of pregnancy I have - the fact that they keep responding and growing to the HCG. My RE was shocked by the scan and apologized after she looked at my abdomen for how I must feel. I just looked back at her and told her as long as I saw that little sac it didn't matter how uncomfortable I feel.
I will take it - take it all. I want it that bad. And maybe thats the biggest reason of why I am so worried, because I know how much it all means.